Some days I have moments where I just stop, and realize the immensity of things. How vast and how wide the world, life is. And I realize how blessed I am. How many get to live their dreams? How many? Especially when they're dreams seem unattainable. When they're dreams are larger than life, or atleast their means for living.
And yet, Im living mine. And there's so much overflow I don't even know how to receive it.
I stepped outside this evening, while everyone else ate and enjoyed one another's company. My mind was a bit preoccupied. I stepped outside to view the world around me and just to absorb my life in light of recent events. Sometimes I wonder why God loves me so much. I'm not all that lovable. Honestly. Who is really. Anyway, I thought of this and just how in spite of myself He lavishes His love upon me; pours out on me like oil. Drenches me in Beauty. Makes life more than worth living. I stood out there and embraced the cool breeze, observed the beautiful landscape, listened to everything around me. I decided to draw. I drew the view of Vignale from the driveway of La Rocca. Perfect view. I'm doing it for one of the guests. I just thought and thought. Im leaving soon. Heading back to Milano for the next semester. Man I'm really gonna miss this place. I know Ill be back here like atleast every other weekend, but when the time finally comes for me to depart this, this peaceful haven, I think a little bit of me will stay here. A piece of my heart will never leave this place. I've never lived anywhere so beautiful and wonderful in my life. Its my second home now and they are my second family.
But I guess i can honestly say, Im ready. Ready for whatever comes. Whatever. I know who I am and I know whose I am. I'll just lay down any burdens that try to jump on my back. They're not mine to carry. I may be leaving this place, but it won't be leaving me. I'm walking into more good times, more struggles, more growth, more memories. More dreams coming true.
Yes. I'm ready.