Well, its been a full 6 days since I last wrote. I am happy to say that I have fully recovered from my recent physical state. Since then, I've been making sure to take my multivitamins and drink plenty of water. Seems to be working so far.
With that said, its been quite the week. New guests have come and gone, and we've had some wonderful times with them. Ive been to the beach twice this week catching plenty of sun, waves and sand. O and not to mention, Ela -Tracey's daughter has returned from the States bringing her aunt Tanya along with her. The 3 of us now share Ela's room. So yes, its been a bit busy around here. But its been wonderful. The only thing about being super busy, going back and forth doing this and that is that, after a while you realize you haven't really had any downtime- time for just yourself and God. Now,believe me, everyday is like another encounter with Him especially in light of where Im living now and that with the guests who come, we end up hanging out like family and pouring God's word into each other. Everyday is Jesus day. But like I said, not much alone time. And after a while, at least with me anyway, it starts to show. Maybe it doesn't appear that way to those around me, but internally, my thoughts begin to go from being full of joy and peace to off the wall craziness. I can't hear God speaking to my heart so easily. I dont feel as welcoming to others or beautiful to myself. Basically, I turn into a mess.
Funny. Complicated as the problem sounds, the solution is so easy. Return to Him. Amazing how complicated we can make it seem. Maybe we feel as though we've neglected, even rejected our relationship with God and then precede to host our own pity party and list all the reasons why God should hate us and not want to talk to us anymore. I know Ive done it a thousand times in some form or another, yet every time the solution remains the same. God does not change, so his Heart does not change, so His desire does not change. He loves us, He wants us. Period. I'm not gonna lie. Sometimes in my mind this is so simple, its complicated. I don't and can't get it. But thats what it always comes down to. At last, in one final attempt at "getting my mind right" and getting back in tune with God, I just give up. Thats when things change. Thats when I change. And that makes all the difference.